Life

Well, Life right now for me is very complicated. My eyes are giving me physical pains that cause me to have headaches and I strain so much to see I am releived to go to sleep at night. I am struggling for the first time in a class, AP US History to be in fact, and I am fighting to keep a B in there and that is stressing me mentally. I haven't had much time to devote myself to God. Stressing me spiritually. And I am infatuated with my best friend. She is an amazing person and yet, I did not fully realize my feelings for her until recently and I have been trying to get her dating another guy. And it looks like she just might. I am very stressed out and really would like some kind of order in my life again. I seem almost as if a different person now. A person I don't like.